So I wrote a few things
the other day that were pretty dumb and which I don't really think.
What can I say? I was having a bad day. A very bad day. It happens, more than I'd like. I've been dealing with bad days (and bad weeks and bad months) since I was 17 years old. Depression is an illness and one of the worst illnesses, I think. I've often wished I had cancer instead, because then you get to die from the disease and it's over, or you are (usually) cured and get over it and move on. Not always, I know.
Psychiatrists and doctors and therapists like to say depression is curable, like a doctor I recently read in the
NY Times. But I've never found that cure. There is such a thing as
treatment-resistant depression. Or maybe, perhaps, and I'm not kidding, I'm just a weak person. It's a real possibility. In any case, nothing else has had such a large impact on my being in the last 50 years.
...but I'm also not that interested in climate change anymore. I was only ever interested in the science, not the politics, but as the science seems more and more established it's falling out of my Overton Window. I'm not interested in every nuance of the AMOC ocean stream and polar ice and carbon capture, and certainly not whether the world will seriously address the problem.
It's true that the US politics are a mess, and I don't want to write about every stupid thing Trump says or all the other deniers who, to me, seem less relevant every year. Of course, since Trump is cutting science in about every way possible, including climate science and meteorology, deniers like Anthony Watts probably think they are winning, or have won.
But that just speaks to their ideological focus and lack of scientific understanding. It's always been clear that Watts knows little science and was more interested in traffic and money than in publishing the truth.... Of course, no professional scientist or expert thinks climate change is done, and no sane person would believe the usual denier suspects than the professionals. They will have to answer to someone, someday, though surely are too arrogant and full of themselves to do so honestly.
We have a lot of climate change still ahead of us, probably enough to get us to at least 3°C.
One-half of an ice ages' worth of warming. My God.
While I might not be interested in every up and down of the AMOC's decline, I know the trends and they are extremely worrisome. Few people outside the climate community and smart readers (like you) understand this.
I hope he [Trump] brings about the collapse of the US as soon as possible--it's been coming on for 50 years, and America certainly deserves it--so US regions can secede and start again. But I don't care about that either--I'm not married, I don't have any kids, so I don't have any stake in the future.
Well, to be honest, I do hope the US collapses soon. It surely won't be pleasant, but it is necessary, I believe--not just for Americans, but for the entire world. The US is now 1/3rd of a billion people, too big to form a true democracy, even a democratic republic. Our representatives don't give a shit what their constituents think, there are simply too many of them. I've read that they all spend a significant fraction of their time simply on the phone calling past donors for more donations. I don't doubt it.
Citizen's United, and all that, set the ultimate destruction of the US in place. Yet I don't think it was incorrectly decided. This was a fundamental flaw in the Constitution (speech=money), which I don't see any way out of. If newspapers get free speech, why doesn't anyone else get it in a similar fashion?
The US needs to break up to return government closer to the people.
Trump -- probably the devil incarnate (if I believed in supernatural beings like the devil) -- isn't fixing anything, and only accelerating our downfall.
Yes, I'm not married, never will be, don't have any children and never will. I have a niece and nephew whom I love, but they are pretty intelligent and come from a great home and have (and will have more) a ton of advantages. They'll get by, even if maybe they need to leave the US to do it. But what am I to do? I can hope the future is amenable to them, but there's nothing I can do to make it so, besides loving them. But now that they're no longer children, they need me less, and frankly not at all anymore....
None of us can do anything else for them. That's the huge tragedy of all this. It's long since been out of our hands. And, what did we really do wrong?
Again, the country (and the world) is too big.
More and more it seems futile to me to hope for a better future when there's nothing I can do to make it so. Not really. And I'm getting old and tired and sore and am all stoved up and just don't have the energy I used to. Not that my energy has ever done any good anyway. I really don't see that I've accomplished anything in my life. I didn't even pass my genes on--intelligent genes, even though they carry depression.
This is what I felt I needed to say about
that post, now over a week old. It's embarrassing, and I hope you will forgive me.
Cheers.